Sorry for not writing these last two weeks. I hope that you can all forgive me. Back in July I posted that I thought I had broken my foot. I went over 3 weeks before my friends and family finally convinced me to check into the ER. They took x-rays in the ER and gave me crutches and a boot and told me to follow up with an orthopedist. Out of my own ignorance, I chose to work over going to schedule this appointment because the ER hadn't told me how bad the break was and had given me a boot and crutches. I figured that was all I needed and that it would heal on my own. Well I wore the boot for two months before finally ditching it and dealing with the constant dull pain for the last 2 weeks. I finally grew concerned last week because I felt a lump in my foot and knew that something wasn't right. I saw a mean podiatrist in Brooklyn who was very upset with me because I had been walking on it so much and the boot that they gave me in the ER was a surgical boot and not an actual boot that would have helped me heal. Below are the pictures that show how serious my break was.
It turns out that I had completely snapped the bone in two before I had went to the ER. When I was walking with the surgical boot, it was not providing any support that I needed. Instead of the bone repairing itself, I stinted it and now my toe is shorter than it was. I also grew a bone callous from all of the walking that I had done on it and the chances are small that I will make a natural recovery.
I will be getting electric shock treatments to my bone to try and make it grow up and not out like it has been. The excess bone might go away on its own, but they will definitely have to get rid of it surgically if in the next few weeks that it doesn't disappear. They will have to shave off the bone and put a metal plate in my foot to fix it.
I was completely devastated when he told me this. I have had a broken foot now for months and cannot come to terms with the fact that I could be broken till April because of the improper advice and ignorance. How dare I think that working is more important than taking care of my health? What, am I an idiot? Now I might not be able to work anyway because surgery is definitely looking like the only solution to get my foot fixed.
The doctor gave me the boot and suggested crutches and not walking for a month but, like I said, crutches in the city is damn near impossible. Plus they hurt me, frustrate me, and I am very bad on them.
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| My Broken foot. The huge bump on the second toe is the bad part. |
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| You can see on the right a slight shadow of the bump on my foot. |
Running really helps my depression. Without being able to run, I have sunk into a pretty deep depression. And finding the truth about my foot and having the doctor tell me that I might always have pain in my foot and will struggle to ever run is the worst news in the world to me. Along with this, it might affect my holiday plans to go home and see my family at Thanksgiving and also my London trip over Christmas. I am just devastated by this whole incident. I should have gone in to see a doctor sooner. I urge others not to put their health on the back burner. It is really easy to do when you are younger because you assume that you are invincible or that you know your body better than you do. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers!
